The Hero Complex

May 20, 2012

Nerdy Earworm: May 20, 2012

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It’s no secret that I want to be a fantasy author. I’ve been coming up with stories about monsters and heroes since I was in second grade, and some of the characters I wrote stories about back them are still around, in vastly changed shapes. If there’s a prayer I say daily, it’s “Please, help me get this all out of my head and on to the page, and then let someone other than me love it”.

There’s been a lot of interest in what writers listen to as they’re writing, probably popularized by That Woman* being really open about what trashy, horrible music** she listens to while she writes her trashy, horrible books***, but I can never resist finding out what an author’s playlist (or playlists) look like. Maybe the secret for success is locked inside a particular combination of musical notes and if I play them in the right order, I’ll find what I need to turn this mess into a coherent narrative. Or maybe I’ll find Earth, if I’m really Starbuck in disguise (note: I am not Starbuck in disguise. OR AM I?).

Every so often I come across a band or a song or even just a line that gives me a whole new scene, or a fresh way of looking at what I’ve already created. My latest earworm happens to be this:

Grimes — “Oblivion”.

Doesn’t she look like a character from a Neal Stephenson novel? Her boombox probably does double duty as a high-tech hoverboard that will explode if anyone but her touches it. The fact that one of her albums is called Giedi Primes only convinces me further that she is, in fact, a visitor from the future with a message for us all. Or a Harkonnen agent. Either way! Awesome!

I can already feel something percolating, thanks to this song, so I’m going to play through it a few more times until I’ve caught whatever inspiration it’s providing. I hope you like it!

What’s YOUR earworm today, readers (ha! I say this like I have readers!)?

* – Stephenie Meyer (haha, she can’t even spell her own name right, the jerk.

** – music that even I refused to listen to when it was 2003 and I was really into the Blood Brothers.

*** – The Twilight Saga, which is pretty much everything that is terrible in my life, all rolled up into book form.


May 18, 2012

A few thoughts on the god of mischief.

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Was anyone else disappointed that the really sickly/hungry appearance Loki had when he first showed up in The Avengers didn’t last for the whole movie? It was obviously, from the start, that he’s been through the wringer — just from what happened in Thor, not to mention what went on after he fell into the abyss.

He looks sick, like he’s suffered for a long time (which, duh), and I wish they had played up that aspect of the character. In Thor, Loki was manipulative, mischievous, jealous, greedy, and heartbroken, usually all at once, but he was still capable of love (especially for Thor, however jealous and uncertain he was of his brother). When we see him next in The Avengers, he’s seen whole worlds — probably worlds he never wanted to see — and it’s sickened him, on a physical level.

None of what he’s experienced is an excuse for his behavior, but I don’t think of Loki as a villain. He’s an antagonist, driven to these acts by betrayal, lies, and manipulation — some of them his own, some of them his family’s. No one is going to convince me that the Master/Thanos didn’t see this horrible need in him and then exploit it, but because Loki is so clever (probably the cleverest person in Asgard, in the movies or comics), no one can convince me that he didn’t know he was being played by his so-called allies. And yet, he still went along with it— he hates himself so much he’s fully complicit in his own destruction (this is the guy who is totally willing to commit genocide on his own race).

I pity Loki, but because he so often consciously chooses to reinforce his own worst aspects, it’s hard to sympathize with him.

Loki and Thor

The most telling moment in the whole movie, as far as Loki’s character goes, is when he’s faced with all the Avengers after the climactic battle, and lets himself be captured. I say “lets himself” because it’s already been demonstrated, time and again, that Loki is a master of magic (remember the battle on Jutonheim in Thor? “You’ve got me! Oh wait —illusions, Frost Giant.”) and specifically, a master of evasive magic (why else was he gagged and bound for that last scene in The Avengers? He’s a danger even without an army). Loki is only ever caught because he wants to be. He surrenders because, for once, Thor’s entire attention is focused on him — Loki isn’t a party to one of Thor’s stunts, but Thor’s entire world. And that’s all Loki wants. He got what he wanted — not a world, not vengeance, just Thor’s attention. And so, after getting what he wants, he does exactly what Thor asked him to do.

He gives up. And he comes home.

NOTE: I originally posted this to my Tumblr, but now that I’m moving this blog away from just knitting to general nerdery, I’m cross-posting it here.

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